The Catalyst

Restless, irritable, discontent, out of shape, overweight, and miserable, I
sat behind the computer screen and watched the wind meters, taunting me,
showing yet another windy day passing me by. Seven years of countless
hours studying, training, and dedicating myself to the sport of kiteboarding
and here I sit, at a desk, missing a session. Monotony and complacency
had crept back into my existence and were now weighing heavy on the soul.

The once raging fire inside for progression was
now a flickering flame on a bed of hot coals.

My passions was a now fleeting thought and worry was my
main focus. “How did I get here?” I thought to myself. The answer quickly
came, “I got on he wrong the train”! I was too focused on moving up
the ranks and developing a “career” in the industry to ultimately achieve my
main goal; earn more money. This futile pursuit led me down a dark path
because I was disregarding the clear facts. Deep down I knew when I was
boarding the “money train” that it was going to take me to a place in which I
wasn't going to like. But like most things in my life, the best lessons learned
are from my biggest mistakes. Fortunately, from this particular mistake
came a great sense of urgency and a clear path to follow.

A willingness and surrender is born that ignites a
fire within that fuels aggressive action

Rock bottom is a place that is not foreign to me, it is usually at that point,
when the flame is almost out, that a phoenix arises from the ashes and a
willingness and surrender is born that ignites a fire within that fuels
aggressive action.